I was once a massive Twilight fan. Back in November of last year I bought the first book and found myself amazed. I fell in love with it and finished in about a week. And I read the next three books just as fast or even faster.

I thought it was the most amazing storyline, bringing me a new vampire plot which I had been lacking since I finished Buffy for the first time a few years earlier. I adored Edward and Bella's dynamic with how it reminded me of many things I have in my own relationship, as well as many things that just made me think Edward was amazing. I was a Team Edward-er.

Yup, I was one of those fans.

Later into finishing the series, I started reading other people's comments of the Twilight series online. Primarily, I read opinions of other Buffy fans on particular forums. Of course I wasn't surprised to find anti-Twilight people. I decided to check out why these people disliked what I considered to be extraordinarily amazing.

The comments were mostly based around the bad writing of Stephenie Meyer, which I to this day still do not agree with, and the ridiculous vampire mythology that Twilight had. You see, Meyer went rather outside of the box when it came to the vampire lore used in Twilight, portraying the vampires in mostly a good light instead of deadly. The most ludicrous of it all was the fact that the vampires did not burn in the sun, but instead sparkled. I did not agree with what these anti-Twilighters were saying at the time. I considered the sparkling in the sun to be simply a different idea to what most vampire mythologies used.

Soon after all this I saw the movie. I was so excited to see my favourite novel made into a feature film. I organised the day with all of my closest friend to see it as early as possible. We saw at one of the best cinemas for the biggest screen. I loved the movie and my only complaint was the pacing which I found to be too fast. Although, it was understandable for a two hour movie which was trying to reflect a rather thick book.

Then the TwiHard in me died down into TwiLite (was not an intentional pun, but whatever) with no new Twilight to stimulate me.

We fast forward to now, about 10 months later. (only because the exact details of the rest of the story are shaky with the dates)

My opinion is a bit up and down. I haven't re-read the books at all, so I haven't read them since last year.

I bought the DVD of Twilight (deluxe edition, of course) and could barely manage to finish the movie. Why? It bored me to death. That was early in the year and I have still not finished watching all the special features on the DVD. I also watched the movie at a friends house with all of my friends, and spent the whole time commenting on what I found to be stupid in the movie. For example, how Bella sounded like a man whenever she was angry or how melodramatic some of the scenes were. And by now in the present, my opinion on the movie is that it is absolutely terrible.

However, throughout the year I managed to buy two massive Twilight posters, about five Twilight/Vampire themed shirts, a Twilight bookmark, the Twilight Companion book and the Twilight Directors Notebook. But I have yet the read the Twilight Companion at all still.

Quite recently, while looking at some photos of Robert Pattinson I realised that he is absolutely hideous in his vampire makeup. This went against my previous TwiHard opinion upon seeing the movie. I also thought that Taylor Lautner had an overhanging forehead.

Although these points may seem rather random, it shows my backwards and forwards opinion of Twilight. I now find anti-Twilight jokes hilarious and totally agreeable and find myself uninterested during my friends Twilight rants and conversations. These are usually "Robert Pattinson is sooo hot" or "OMG TEAM JACOB" or "New Moon is coming out soon omg omg omg omg omg". Which reminds me to mention that not once watching any of the New Moon trailers was I particularly excited or amazed or found myself squeeling "OMG NEW MOON HELL YES" like any of my friends.

In fact, whenever I overhear someone bad-mouthing Twilight around me or on the other side of the room or something I find myself agreeing usually.

So what do I think of Twilight overall? I think the books are great, possibly amazing. I can't offer a proper opinion since I have not read them in my TwiLite state yet. And even though the books are good, they are not as good as other vampire based universes such as those created in Buffy/Angel, the new show Vampire Diaries and True Blood, which I haven't even seen more than one episode of yet but I still found it better.

But my opinion on the movie is pretty solid. It was horribly done and I doubt I will enjoy it very much in the future. Catherine Hardwicke, despite her claims that she is a devoted Twilight fan in her Directors Notebook, had no idea what Twilight book fans wanted and went against them. It didn't reflect the book in the right respects at all and I'm glad she will not be continuing the movie series.

I will watch New Moon, and will probably be excited for it's release when it comes near. It may very well be better than Twilight and may reflect the book a lot better, but I doubt it. It may fair better than Twilight, but it will not fill my expectations I am sure. But if it does, my faith in the series may be completely restored.

In summary, my devotion for Twilight is not dead, but instead more weak than my devotion for other vampire related media.