Heroes review: Turn and Face the Stranger (3x22)
Just watched the newest Heroes episode, although later than usual. It was out online on Tuesday and I haven't watched it until now due to other distractions. It was a good episode, but not the usual dramatic seat-clinging action (although it hasn't been that good in a while anyways.)

It was good to see Parkman get some revenge on losing Daphne. After losing her, he's ready to die and almost gets shot. But, Hiro comes to the rescue just in time to save Parkman and introduce him to his son, named after himself. So Matt and Matt enjoy some father-son bonding time.

Totally LOVED to see Danko and Sylar to screw up Noah's life. Now he has lost the small amount of trust left from his wife and also his job, which was the cause for the issues with his wife in the first place. It would be really sad if I actually gave a shit about the boring bastard.

90210 review: Off the Rails (1x18)
I also watched the newest 90210, which focused primarily on Silver and her breakdown or whatever. I guessed her problem really early on in the episode, and actually shouted "Yesss!" when they mentioned that she has been diagnosed with bi-polar.

Annie finally realised that Ethan don't love her no more after whining and lying for half the episode about it. Then Ethan pointed out that no matter how much she whined, he still don't love her no more and she got over it. I would have prefered it if Annie had a brain anyerism of shock over it and died right there.

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So, I received my iPod on Wednesday night. I tried to make that sentence sound as calm as possible. What I really wanted to write was, "OMG I GOT MY IPOD ON WEDNESDAY AND ITS SOOOOOOOO GOOD." I most definetly am not disapointed.

My new iPod does mean it is time for me to clean up my iTunes on the family computer. Spending about 5 hours on it last night, I barely made any progress on it. I'm hoping to have it done by the end of the easter weekend. May I explain that my cleaning up consists of the following:

Basically deleting the current iTunes Library, re-entering all my music again from the locations with the most music in them, deleting any songs that aren't mine that ended up in the entering, checking my list for any songs that aren't in the Library, then tracking them down on my comp and entering them, renaming all artists, song titles, albums etc. on ALL songs, using album importer program to import the album art to every song, transferring every song to my iPod and waiting for it to complete, and finally, checking the overall music on my iPod for any missing songs.

Seem hard or what? That's my weekend.

On another topic of projects, I will be starting Morality these holidays. Once my iTunes work is done I will switch my focus to Morality. I guarantee you that.

I'm also currently working on getting all of the Adobe Creative Suite. If you're wondering what's on that, it's basically every good Adobe program in one. Photoshop, Flash, etc. I need a massive disc, probably DVD-R that is about 8 GB in size to download the Creative Suite to. I can't even fit these programs onto my computer.

But what does this have to do with Morality? Well, one of the programs, I've forgotten the name of it exactly, is used for video editing. Video editing being the ability to make the flashy YouTube videos you see of fan-made promos and theme songs etc. I will be using that software to... wait for it... make a Morality opening theme, hopefully. Not promising it though.

I think I'm about done there. Hopefully the next time I blog I'll have an organized iTunes and some Morality written for you.

Your blogger,
Miss Alexiness.

So I'm finally back on my computer. And after some annoyances with my antivirus and MSN that I amazingly fixed perfectly, everything seems back to normal. I spent today transferring stuff from the laptop onto here and also organising the folders I have on here. I thought I'd organise in prep for when I get my iPod, which when I get I will be putting my entire folder on it and organising every file I own.

But, being back on my own computer means that a few things I've been avoiding, I can do finally. Yes, Morality can finally be started. (I know, delayed much?) I thought I'd point out how basically those release dates I gave out a while ago are clearly not correct... since most of them have passed and nothing has happened. So here is my promise to you, my humble... waiters... Morality will be done these school holidays. Which are about 2 weeks away. So, in honour of this promise, here is a new un-official self-deadline list!

Character Advertisements: 18th April
Full Advertisement: 30th April
Website: 10th May
First Chapter Release: 20th May

Anyways, on another topic... my birthday is exactly a week away. Even though my getting an iPod is delayed, I'm still excited. And I don't really care anymore that I may not my 100% perfect birthday blah blah blah... if getting my iPod a week later means I am actually getting it, I don't care! I'm getting an iPod Touch! So yeah, the giddiness has returned, if you were wondering. Looking at this picture still almost makes me squeal in excitment:

What can I say? I'm a material person...

I think I'm about done there.

Your blogger,
Miss Alexiness.

As many of you know, I have spent weeks with shit-ass luck that has yet to finish. It has even gotten to the point where I don't remember everything this bad luck has given me. This shit has ranged from my sore back, my lock being broken, locking my keys in my locker, finding out about an incident involving Luke and a friend of mine (see other entry), getting sick, getting a cold the day after. Now I've managed to remain happy and cheerful (which is amazing for me) throughout all this bullshit.

As mentioned in other entries, I've been extremely excited for my birthday. Remarking how my birthday will fix all my bad luck and make me happy. This is mostly due to my excitment over hopefully getting an iPod Touch.

I have been told that I may not be able to get my iPod Touch.

Sounds lame for me to get worked up over, but I did. I lost it. Because that glimmer of hope that may end my bad luck streak just got infected by said bad luck and destroyed.

I'm a really material person. Meaning that items, objects, possessions etc. are what I shape my life over. My DVD collection, my computer, my phone, my iPod, etc. Hence my love of money. So getting my dream iPod for my birthday which has everything I want in it, makes me extremely happy. Especially when I've done countless amounts of research to ensure that it is perfect. Which, it is. I can live through a cold, a sore back and some annoyances at school. But when the item I dream for is taken away, it's worse than any of it.

Your blogger,
Miss Alexiness.

Yes, I should be doing my homework right now... but the thought of my birthday is keeping me from it. Plus, the annoying length of my Biology homework is also causing me to avoid it...

But how can I not obsess such a beauty that I may very well have in my hand a month from now...

Yes, I am obsessed. But how could I not? All the bullshit issues I've been having with my current iPod, phone and computer will be fixed if I own this. (I can't be bothered elaborating on that, ask me yourself later.)

Plus, I finally decided to get a DS chip, as opposed to a regular game for my birthday. They're about the same price, and I found a website which sells the very chip I've seen others with.

So yeah, in short I'm uber excited for my birthday, which if I do the math is...

20 days away!

I know, I'm massively over-excited but I don't care!!!

Your blogger,
Miss Alexiness.

I have been massively lacking in blog entries lately, and for that I apologise. It's been too long since I've written an entry, so I'll update ya'll on what's happened. I'm not in the best mood right now, so excuse any negativity or "depressive" writing.

So, I heard some news about Luke that was surprising, and really bad. I don't really feel like writing it publicly on here, but I'm willing to tell anyone who doesn't yet know more privately or whatever. It's bad and involves a friend of mine and is a pretty typical stereotype of an asshole.

Reeling from this information, I decided not to dump him, although all my friends seem to think I should have. But I knew that if dealing with this news and the fact that I couldn't be with Luke for a few days, let alone forever, I knew there was no way I could dump him. But that didn't mean I was letting him off easily. Luke has been banned from seeing the previously mentioned friend alone outside school from now on. And if any such incident occurs again, dumping WILL happen. No matter what my feelings are.

But, to my friends this seems to be forgiving considering the situation. I haven't been harsh enough. Even though I've managed to reduce Luke to tears over this, it's still not enough?

So I came to the conclusion that I'm not doing this to keep my friends happy, I'm doing to keep me happy but not make me the dumbassed girlfriend who always says when they do it again, "This will be the last time, I know it... I'm sure." Even though, quite obviously it won't be. But I'm not like that, I know it. I'm not an idiot, far from it. And if it does happen again, I will make myself dump him, feelings be damned. That's when I know it's a lost cause. He promised me that he'll never do it again. And, unlike my friends, I trust Luke with my life. And just because he's kept this from me, doesn't mean that everything that's happened in the past year and a half means nothing. It means everything.

So there I go, ignoring my friends strong opinions and going with my gut and my heart by going back to Luke. At first, it was like it never happened, but I can tell things are different. I still haven't seen him outside school since hearing the news, and I'm not sure exactly what will come of it.

After all this, I've had a streak of shitassed bad luck. I burned my leg, my lock broke, I locked my keys in my locker and today I felt majorly shit for no reason. And on top of that, the Luke thing has thrown me backwards in my thinking. Things I thought I stopped doing, anxiety disorder wise, have started coming back. Being overdramatic, crying over jack all, trying to get attention, feeling shit from tiny comments... it reminds me of the old me. The me that I've spent so long trying to get rid of. Shy, bitchy, nerdy, typical, loser Alex. Old Alex. And dear fucking god I hate her more than anything on this earth. Because she is nothing. I don't want to be nothing again.

So sure, I may be scared massively of spiders, moths, heights, deep water and countless other things... but my deepest fear? Being the old me. And the one thing that pisses me off more than anything is being compared to HER. Being treated like I'm still here. Being coddled like a special person, being told I always do something...

That's why when someone assumes they know something about me, usually anything, I get pissed off. It's usually wrong, because fuck no, you don't know. Few people know me. I'm just fucking restricted all the time by this bullshit in my head. Shyness, anxiety disorder... whatever.

And on another topic, Morality. I'm so very, very, very sorry that I still haven't got around to writing. Anything. With reason though, see above. I swear I'll get to it! Really. So much shit has been going on, I just have to wait 'til it calms down. I don't have access to my computer, emotional crap, school work, burnt leg, plans... the list goes on. I'm hectic as! But I swear, when it calms down, I'll get to it.

So my birthday is about a month away! Wooooo~! Yeah, I cannot wait. I was finalising my birthday list yesterday (yes, I'm massively overprepared, deal with it) and I'm very excited. There's a possibility I'll get an iPod Touch, plus some DVDs, games and stuff. And on the note of presents, yes I will have a birthday party. And I thought I'd tell everyone here if you want to know what to get me:

JUST GET ME MONEY. IF YOU BUY ME A PRESENT, I WILL MAKE YOU TAKE IT BACK AND GIVE ME MONEY.

Why? Because the things I want are a bit too expensive, so I'm going to tell everyone to buy me DS games and DVD box sets. But if I get money, they all get pooled together and I can buy those things.

Another point: Twitter. I've noticed some of my friends have started getting it. (Finally!!) And some people have and then got it rid of it because "it looked too hard" or "it seemed comfusing". Others haven't even bothered because "it looks gay." Y'know that status message you can put on MySpace and Facebook where you tell everyone what you're doing? Yeah, take that and get rid of everything else on the social networking site and you're left with what Twitter is. You tell everyone what you're doing, reply to what other people are doing, etc. It's easy, not hard to manage, and addictive. You can set up Twitter through your mobile so you can tell people what you're doing on the go.

And if you have too many websites you have statues to update for, I have another solution. I use a website called Ping.fm. Ping.fm allows you to post your status through there and it sends it to all of your social network sites. You can also get that on your mobile. So, please, give Twitter a try!! It's not hard. I can help you out if you need the help too. Please, get Twitter.

Wow, I think I'm finally done ranting. It's a miracle.

Your blogger,
Miss Alexiness.